I have a gas bill I haven’t paid in months. Due to a mixup, we were charged double for our gas over the summer, and it’s been my job to resolve it. But I haven’t, because I just don’t like to think about it.
I have a thank-you card that’s been waiting for months to be sent, but I don’t have the right address. Now I’m so ashamed to admit it to myself that I can’t bring myself to think about it, so I never take action to get the address. So I never send it.
I have a letter I received two years ago which I still haven’t opened. I think I know what’s inside, and it’s important to me. I’ve been waiting for a big moment. But the moment never came, and now, two years later, I can’t imagine a moment big enough to be worth all the wait. When I think about it, my face gets hot, and I push it out of my mind.
These things hold a great deal of power over me. They are fractures in my integrity. Any time I make myself a promise, any time I aspire to do something great, these things remind me that I’m a failure. That I have a terrible secret. That I’m unwhole.
Today, I am taking a stand. I will resolve each of these fractures. I will finish one each week, and in three weeks, I will be healed. To strengthen that commitment, I will begin to resolve this week’s fracture immediately.
I gave these things power. I gave away my power to them, and only I can take it back.
Maybe you can’t wait to do the same.